My blog might look a bit inactive, but that’s the last thing that describes my super roller-coaster life, that has a new little adventurous member on board!! My little doll Diva is over 5 months now… and I wonder how fast the time is zipping ahead! But with all the hectic helter skelter schedule, I am simply enjoying the best moments of my life... only wish God had also created an automatic video recorder in our memories, to replay these moments, word by word, breath by breath!
Let me pause, take deep breaths, and then I will give you a short run down of my new mommy life! For the unassuming, it’s not about poops, cries and sleepless nights… that’s the least descriptive of all, it is about learning and adjusting to a new life! My mom used to tell me that a woman has three reincarnations in a single life – the actual birth, marriage and when she becomes a mother… today I can totally relate to this statement...
I have discovered that being a mom isn’t as easy, and the realization has made me appreciate my own parents। But what awes me more is the wonderment of nature, as I am seeing my baby grow! God created us all alike – selfish, demanding, attention seeking, honest, and look how we mess it all up when we grow!
When I look at the changing expressions on Diva’s face, they might be confusing for me to comprehend, but their essence is so pure! She has basic needs, food, entertainment and poop। Her feelings are not complicated like ours but honest – she is angry, playful sad or happy. Her needs are so simple, her amazement, her smile is so sincere! Think about it – when was the last time you smiled sincerely? Or for that matter were truly amazed or amused by little everyday things?
Perhaps that’s the reason why babies are so likeable, simply because they are so unadulterated। When I look at Diva, I try to understand what she wants, and behold, she demands everything as her birthright – my attention, her food, her entertainment, toys, everything! She is the little boss of the house! But with this little boss, I can feel honesty creeping in my life again. The innocence, making faces, stupid little sounds (that might sound awful otherwise), funny little activities, sincerity of smile, everything that adulthood snatches from us, comes back!
I wish I could laugh like her on the street, pee wherever, whenever I am comfortable on who ever I like (I really wish this), spit and fart without feeling embarrassed (second on the list after peeing), I wish I could scream at the top of my voice welcoming happiness, embracing and amused by my own vocal chords, I wish I could be forthright again, telling people truth on their face, the way I feel, without mincing words… and u know what... I will see this happen once again with her… my childhood is coming back to me …. Thanks to Diva!
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